Over Ambitious

As I get older, I am starting to realize that I must have a large ego. I mean huge. I guess you can positively spin this as being confident? For some reason, I think I'm going to be amazing at everything I try to do. Unfortunately, this is absolutely rarely the case, and I find myself frustrated and angry that my results are not instantly fabulous. Perhaps I have used up all my patience on my family, because there is hardly any left for myself. I am beginning to realize I am not Martha Stewart. Case in point: after mentally preparing a shopping list full cute children's accessories and clothes from boutiques on Instagram (with my fantastical never ending bank account, obviously)... I was determined to pull out the dust covered sewing machine that I insisted I NEEDED for Christmas two years back, and simply channel my inner seamstress to whip out j.crew kids' quality results. This is at least how it panned out in my mind. The mojo lasted until the darn machine (definitly the machine- my obviously inherent skills have nothing to blame)*sarcasm  kept getting jammed. I called my mother, which is never a good idea when I am frustrated, and was complaining about the whole situation when she tried to offer friendly advice of "you probably don't have the bobbin in correctly." PAH! I grumbled about how "no, obviously I know what I'm doing!" (I don't.) And hung up angry with my mother, and shoving the sewing machine back into it's plastic bin full of couple dozen patterns of previously forsaken projects.

You're probably rolling your eyes at this point. Heck, I know I would be, because once again I have the gatorade mentality. I can do anything better than you.

Truth is I can't. I know I can't. But this over-ambitious mom can't stop believing I can [be a marathon runner, seamstress, blogger.... ..] and once I get set on a idea, I jump fully in (until the first hiccup.) I have realized my over-zealous nature is just driven even harder by my obsessive compulsive need to do something once the idea is planted.

So, here it goes, my next project. My little corner and "mummy jumbo" that I'll share with the world. Warning you now, I scraped by through my required college English courses with writing skills probably more on par with those of a middle schooler.. but hey, I still got that degree! Maybe this time I'll actually stick with an idea and become a blogger (;